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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Monday, November 28, 2005 11:02 PM
wah. so sad seh. suddenly when rearranging the bunks, my eyes was itchy, and before i know, it was red liao. hais. then the other eyes also. cannot stop the "tears" from rolling out. irritating indeed. i also do not know what happen, but just got sore eyes lo. muahaha. and also it's a MIRACLE that i woke up at 6.30am today though supposed to wake up at 6.00am. lols. but i slept only 3hours. haha. somemore, my alarm clock was not working. don't know what's wrong with it too. haha. all thanks to my handphone, which was not loud enough, because it was at one end of my room. haha. but something bad happen, i cut myself with my own fingernails. kinda of weird, but i do not know how i manage to do it either. :) quite a long cut, now still painful..sobs

today went to Sembawang Sec to celebrate Mr Chew's birthday. had lots of fun, other then waiting for Mr Chew to come up. supposedly, he was supposed to come up at 10.00am. but in the end, it was delayed to 11.30am due to the pizza. hahas. then he ended his practice only at 12plus. so all of us had to wait. a combination of 5schools. our school sent 9 people, and 4 went away before the start. hais. sad right? lols. then the most funny thing is that we had to sing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" song twice because the Semb Winds who just ended their practice did not manage to join in the celebrations when we first sang the song. lols. so we had a replay. lols. kinda of weird, but it was certainly very fun. all ended about 2pm. and guess what? i met, my nursery cum kindergarten cum primary school friend. wahaha! MICHELLE MA and other then that, i met new friends from other schools. though we are still not that close, but it was definately a great thing having to know them. lols.



Mr Chew Blowing out candles.



Mr Chew cutting his cake happily.
on my way home, do not know why suddenly want to see you. miss you a lot seh. seeing your picture is not enough, i want to see you face to face. hais. sorry that even if you message me, i cannot reply at all. there are several reasons why i did this. but luckily you didnt, if not, i will cry terribly. nevermind, i do not want to think of it liao. because i chose to ignore everything when i'm back from my holiday.

just now something happen and it dampens my mood totally! my computer hang and i lost all the data once again. the conversation that i kept from two days ago. the last words that you said before i lied to you saying that i'm overseas. perhaps it's not your conversation that saddens me much, but perhaps your nick bahs. argh! this two days are really very bad, i cannot control anymore, but i'm sorry, i have to hang on. left two more days before i actually flies off. i'm sorry to hurt you again. but i do not know why, i have to cry out. and i did cried. but i still will keep my promise. thanks for holding on to the relationship we used to have.

it's been a long time since i contact you le wor. wondering how you doing now. are you getting fine? wahaha. going off soon le. will miss you de. no worries. i will buy back souvenirs for you too. hees. take care when i'm not around.

Lord, i chose to ignore about this very sin of mine. i cherish it a lot. forgive me and wait for me to be willing to give this sins up. one day, it will happen. i promise, because i need you to heal my heart, to heal the wound that was made in relationships. the scars will be there, but at least, i know that Lord, You will clean the blood that was bleeding with Your own blood. sorry to disapppoint You. wait for me to turn back to the Light. the day will come.

*i tried to like you, but i doubt i can. sometimes, i just find that i can treat you as someone i like, but sometimes, NO. this time, i lied to you, i took up lots of courage and tolerate lots of hurt and pain that is in my heart. walk into my heart if you dare!*